Cut off-- VENTING

So yesterday I was cut off by my father, which I knew was coming due to some events that had happened, but was still surprised at the fact he would do it.  How did he notify, you ask? Oh it was by email, possibly the most cowardly way to notify me. I'm still bitter, as I should be, and probably will be for the rest of my life.

What you don't know about me is that I had a full ride to a university to ride horses for four years. My school would have been completely paid for, no questions asked. This school was out of state and on the East coast. It's what I wanted to pursue since I was 7. My father disapproved of my equestrian career. Also, I had never really had a close relationship, which I wanted so badly. In my opinion, I think I would be a great daddy's girl, and is possibly why I like the Sugar world so much.

He had convinced me to stay in the state of Texas and not be so far away. Which I have no idea why, because I have free flight benefits and could have easily come home whenever I pleased. I ended up not going to go through with my dream because I wanted my father's approval and his offer sounded a lot better. Four years paid for and I wouldn't have to have a job, just needed to concentrate on grades.  DEAL

Present day: He barely gives me enough money to pay rent, had to get a job ( which I don't have a problem with as long as it doesn't get in my way of school). Since I have had the wreck I haven't been able to work. He cuts me off because I needed books and decided he couldn't give me any. I take one of the insurance checks and cash them to get books. What else was I supposed to do, sell drugs and or my body?

I know I can't blame him for not going and pursuing my dreams, but at least he could have kept his promise to me. I'm honestly excited to not have him in my life anymore. I don't have to worry about pissing him off with something I did. I don't have to even talk to him if I don't want to. He can't threaten me with money and wave it over my head.  

So the sugar daddy search is in full operation. Till then, canned food, rice, soups and paying bills with coins. SKINNY TIME!! Already lost 4 lbs, I'm kind of excited about it!

Sorry for this vent, I know that some of this may seem like I'm such a spoiled brat, but promise you I'm not.

Update... maybe? I have been toooooooo busy!

Sorry guys! I haven't updated in a month.

Birthday weekend was wild. I got sick from the weekend festivities.

I joined weight watchers and I'm going to start the p90x series. YAY to loosing more weight!

Had a preggers scare with Military guy. I was freaked the fuck out to say the least.

I got a few messages from pots. Nothing to report to you guys yet.

I want to update with  a hilarious SD date or something to amuse everyone, but that hasn't happened yet due to the business of school and life.

Found out that I might have to have surgery and that I have a pinched nerve from the wreck... sweeeeeeeeet, not!

Hope everyone is doing well, I haven't even read anybody's posts lately.