Update on SMY, sugar life, and half of my real life...

Sorry I haven't updated in about a week. Just haven't had very interesting news to tell you guys...

SMY:
He was going to surprise me with a visit up here. I figured he was just talking out of his ass like most guys do... Well I was right. He isn't coming. Which is actually better because I have a very busy week ahead of me. I FUCKING HATE DEAD WEEK OF FINALS! We are STILL going to class during dead week. FML. Anyway he isn't coming and it's better that way.

We had talked this morning about when I was coming back into town for the holidays. I asked him when I should and he said he wanted to take me to lunch on the Friday I get back. He mentioned something about this steak house that is really good. He said lunch, martinis, shopping, and maybe a hotel room.... "Umm I don't know about the hotel room" (our talks have been VERY flirtatious so I can see why he said that)  "I just don't want to promise you something and not follow through with it." SMOOTH MOVE ON MY PART! HA! He appreciated my comment.

Anyway ladies (maybe gentlemen) I don't know if I want to go shopping because my last experience shopping with Mr. BrickBreaker was a complete disaster! I felt like he was judging me on what type of shoes I would get. If they were too flashy, blah blah blah. He should have just shut  his mouth and observed what I liked. Whatever... end rant. Anyway I don't know if I want to go shopping, so what should I do?  He had mentioned something about the driving range... P.S. my whole family knows how to play golf but I DON'T! I told him I just never got around to getting lessons because I was always busy with horse shows and stuff. (BTW I ride horses... I know so cliche- being from Texas and riding horses... but I do the Jumping thing, so not completely true) So maybe it will be a good way for him to teach me and get closer that way.

He had said something about going to a shooting range with his son one time. So I mentioned it to him... Why not go there? Take some aggression out blah blah blah... but it almost seems too trashy in a way.  And I would want to take my aggression out in the bedroom if you know what I mean.  Put Put sounds too regular date-ie-ish (I know not a word, but sounded so perfect) SHITTTTTTT I don't know!!!  Maybe a spa date? couple's massage? Maybe not for the first "official" date...

GIRLS I NEED YOUR OPINION!!

No reply from Mr.Brickbreaker with the last email I sent him... (look below)

New pots. 


Mr. Downtown- Have been talking to him for about a week or 2... Wants to meet up, very short emails. No communication skills over email what so ever. He said he is different in person. FUCK I HOPE SO! Every time I ask him what he does, he somehow avoids the question... Not so sure about him but we will know soon enough.

Mr. Corvette- Yes he has one, I think he is in love with it. Small business owner. Has seen 2 other girls from my college. ASKED IF HE COULD STAY WITH ME WHILE HE WAS IN TOWN... UM NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I told him I had three roommates and one of them was a guy... haha! Lies all Lies! He wants to meet for lunch sometime... we will see where that goes... probably not very far.

Mr. Sushi- Obsessed with sushi! YES!! Wants to meet when he gets back from Hawaii and Vegas... UMMMM yes please! He asked me to join him in Vegas... I told him I wasn't comfortable with that. He understood. He keeps hinting on me going on trips with him... CHYEAH!

Mr. Business- Currently in Germany for business. (check yes) We will see where that goes... Not too much on him yet but I'll let you know when I get some more!

Right now I think SMY is my best bet for a SD over the holidays... He isn't going to NY with his kid anymore (his wife is taking him) YAY! more time with him!!! I think he will help me get motivated to go work out more. HE IS OBSESSED! Maybe yoga membership?  Yes please daddy! I NEED CASH, BILLS AND X MAS PRESENTS NEED TO BE PURCHASED!

Back to studying my life away and writing papers. Jesus I haven't even eaten yet!

I think I made an EWWWWPSIES!

I just sent Mr. Brickbreaker an email that probably wasn't the best to send, especially when I'm hung over and bitchy. OH WELL! Maybe I am channeling my inner bitch more? That's ultimately what he wanted, right?

Just some food for thought! I'm not really expecting an email back, but if you feel inclined to do so, great.  

If you knew that you weren't very good at taking control with first-time sugar babes,  why even proceed to talk to me? Did you think that I was going to be more dominate in person? Yes, I was very submissive but I was trying to get a feel of your personality, etc.  Usually when you do that you don't take the wheel, it's like watching a creature in its own habitat (ant farm, zoo, etc.). 

This isn't supposed to be a bitch fest but maybe you can see it from my perspective a little better. (you should always have other people's perspectives going through your mind) Maybe take this with a huge grain of salt, or put it in that file storage of yours. 

 About planning another date, why did you say anything if you weren't going to follow though?  Obviously you felt a connection because usually people wouldn't have mentioned meeting up another day. I was quite confused on that.  But maybe you don't fit into the "most people" category. 

I wish you luck on your journey. Hope your weekend went well. 

A fellow blogger and I went out last night to scout for potSDs, She might have hit the jackpot, don't want to double jinx it for her. Possibly one on my end as well. He had called last night on my way home to see if I was making it home safely. He wanted me to go back to the four seasons with him, but I declined. I'm quite glad I did, adds more mystery to the pot... I'm thinking he is married because he sent a text saying not to call or text till monday... assuming wifey will look at his phone? I didn't look for a ring, I was a little too tipsy at that point. 

Don't you hate when alcohol just sneaks up on you? I feel like absolute shit today and have decided to drive back to school at 5:30 in the morning to make it to my only class on Monday. FML! 

Mr. BrickBreaker is a bust

So I finally got an email back from him...

 "I wanted to leave a day or so for us both to think about how our first meeting went.  I had a lovely time spoiling you for an afternoon -- but I just can't shake the feeling that you'd be better off with a different type of Daddy than I. (why set up another meeting if you weren't interested?) One who's more naturally dominant and authoritative.  I'm not very good at taking control with first-time sugar babes; I already knew that. (Then why pursue me if you already knew ?) 

 

We tried it out, and you got a couple of cute things to enjoy and (hopefully) some great preparation for meeting the SD who is just perfect for you.  Enjoy the rest of your break here in *place that I live* and I wish ya the greatest success, both in your search for a SD and everything else!"

What should I say back to this?! Should I even say anything? Why waste my time fuck head? I have to be thankful for my new earrings and my new boots. At least I got something out of it, right? I guess it wasn't a total waste of time. Maybe we can be friends or possibly be together later when I get more "selfish".  

 

Not too much excitement going on.

I was shopping online earlier this morning. I BELIEVE I DIED AND WENT TO SHOE HEAVEN...  So funky, so cute!

I'm super excited to go back home for the Thanksgiving holidays. Family, SDs who want to take me shopping, hockey games, more shopping with the family, meals, card playing, drinking, and lots of laughs to come out of next week. Two dates on Wednesday might have me a little flustered but I'm sure I can manage.

Mr BrickBreaker is coming along nicely. We have emailed everyday, at least twice a day. We have a meeting set up for Wednesday when I get back home. Shopping is what he wants to do. OH THANK THE SHOPPING LORDS! Hopefully a new pair of boots, since my last ones pooped out on me. He wants to go to the shopping mall that has burberry, saks, neiman, betsey, etc. YAY!!! Hopefully he follows through. Jinx?... hopefully not.

Mr. Hardwood- is not really a SD. Actually came into my life before I started thinking about being a SB. VP of a company. Our first date was at the horse races. Paid for everything including my bets. Anyway he wants to go to a hockey game (never been to one) on Wednesday. So hopefully my first meeting with BrickBreaker won't run THAT late. If it does then I'll just have to be late.

2 more PotSDs coming along.  More on those when they come.

Did I mention how much I love weekends?!

Until then sugars!

Brick Breaker

Here I am looking at SD4M, noticed I had a couple of messages... SWEET!


I opened this one message. 


"...You wrote beautifully about the things you enjoy; perhaps you could tell me more about things you're seeking to attain for yourself. Don't hold back -- honest expression of desires and expectations is where any good SB/SD relationship starts..."


Finally a person who actually reads a profile and writes beautifully. Not to mention wants me to be upfront and honest about everything. We have emailed back and forth and I feel I have been writing a novel or book. It takes me about an hour to send him back an email, I'm not complaining, It's actually quite fun. 


"This letter may have been even more boring than the last!  Oh, woe is me, having to write a reply to such a tedious missive... if only the BrickBreaker app on my BlackBerry weren't broken I could be having so much fun right now ..." 


His name is going to be.... Mr. Brick Breaker. Can you sense the sarcasm?


"...But one thing is crucial: you should feel an increasing sense of power as well as security as the SD/SB dynamic evolves.  It must never feel like "I'm getting this because I'm giving him that."  Have you reached that milestone yet, or given thought to it?  My advice is not to rush just because you've convinced yourself it's expected.   That's poison."


Perfectly put, my good man! Do you guys think so? He seems to want me to be very comfortable in the relationship and if I'm not he/we will fix it. 


Quick question: Do you ever feel like you write more beautifully than you talk in person? 


Sometimes I think I have that problem. Don't get me wrong, I can talk, I'm just more submissive in conversations (usually). I don't typically talk about things I don't have much knowledge about. I really dislike talking about me too much as well. 




Haven't heard from MR. G. Sent him an email this morning but haven't gotten word back.