'09 in a nutshell- Hopes and Goals for 2010

2009 has been a HUGE learning experience for me. I look at back at where I was last year at this time and I am so thankful that (Insert higher being here) has planted me in this little sugary garden.

To give you a little insight on where I was last year, I was dating someone I went to high school with that I didn't know at the time. We became an item and were together for two years. He was the biggest bull-shitter I have ever known and I still love him. He was my first love. He had promised me everything under the sun and did everything he could do to get it for me. The only problem was, he didn't work that hard to get me everything under the sun he had promised. I was on the fast track to becoming the fiance, the wife, the mom, the bread winner of the family with a fiance, husband, the dad, that sat on his ass telling me about our kids and how they were growing up because he had no ambition.

One day I took a step back and realized I didn't want to be there. I wanted to be the fiance, the wife, the mom, who didn't really have to work, but did it to keep her busy and have some extra cash for shopping or fun vacations. I ultimately want to be the wife on the movie The Blind Side.
The wife that actually runs the house but makes it appear that her husband does.

I hope to find this one day in my life and I know it will come, for now I am just thankful that I get to be apart of the sugar lifestyle. To have gifts, to be adored by older men, to have a mentor (because my father decided to step down from that position when I was 3), to be treated like a princess and to show my appreciation to them.

The list for 2010:

• Never stray from the person I really am
• Get back into horseback riding
• Make myself more irresistible to men (aka loose a little more lbs and tone it up)
• Get an amazing internship
• Have amazing times with SDs while I still have time
• Get a trip to Europe 
• A new car (or new to me) a convertible would be amazing!
• Look the part as an SB and future business woman, no more t shirts :(
• Take golf lessons
• Piano lessons (that might have to come next year)
• Try to go to a yoga studio 3 times a week
• Finally get an allowance from a SD
• Get A's and B's this semester 
• Start reading more 

I'm sure I will add more later. I can't really think of all I want to accomplish this year. That's a pretty good list to start with.

I hope all of you have an amazing New Year! I will be baby sitting for a 6 year old. It shouldn't be THAT bad. Making easy money in the New Year!

SMY called to see what I was doing tonight. He almost got kicked out of his house last night. What a dumb ass! I told him I was baby sitting. I might spend the night with him after I get done with baby sitting, if he is at his other place.I think he is falling for me and I think it scares him, almost scares me a bit. He asked when I was going back to school and I said probably around the 13 or 14th. He knows I don't start school until the next week and asked me why I was going back so early and I told him I was going to go to Denver for a little vay-kay. He asked what I would do and why I was going. I almost mentioned that it was another guy taking me there. Should I let him know that it's an SD taking me there? I don't want him to think he is the only one I'm "waiting" around for. But I also don't want him to shove it in my face later. I know I should be honest with him, but I'm so torn. I don't want to hurt his feelings, if there are any. I think he is scared I might hurt him. He might be right.....

Haven't talked to Mr. Denver today. I wonder what he is getting into tonight...

How cool would it be to celebrate the New Year up in the mountains with champagne, hottubs, snow, all in an amazing log cobin.... May have to be on the list for next New Year! Or on the Dateline in a big yatch! DUDE! Lots to make come true in this next year. I better get busy!

Luv ya mean it, girls!

-Nicole SS

Holy psycho in a hand basket

 In the beginning of the conversation, he kept repeating "Do you understand what I'm looking for?", he never really said anything but this in his profile.


        "I am looking for someone cute, open minded, and clean cut. I want to find someone easy going that I can spoil. I know just as much about fashion as most girls claim so I feel as though I always give good advice. I am not shallow though and personality counts just as much as looks. I am not into tattoos or piercings but I can make exceptions. I find myself to be personable, attractive, and well dressed. I am enjoy working out and playing tennis. Please contact me if you have any interest. "


That's pretty easy to understand. He wants a girl to have around. Spoil. Obviously someone with cute looks, because he is going to fly her out to NY and actually SEEEEEEEEE her. 


WRONG!


This guy wants to have phone conversations for $200 a call... Just a phone conversation about him pouring his life on me and his deepest darkest secrets. WHAT THE FUCK. He started talking about how he liked to look at black guy's cocks... WHAT THE FUCK (x 54,398,083,345,983).  I told him I had an appointment that I needed to get to prior to the conversation, for an easy out, just in case. He didn't want to fly me out to NY. No meeting, just talking about how he likes cocks and likes to look at them. Let me repeat myself again. 
WHAT THE FREAKING FUCK?!?!!?
I'm laughing to myself now because it's so fucking redick! If he wanted someone to talk to about that stuff he could have just gone to a therapist or like DONE IT ONLINE!






Flight is booked for Denver! 

DENVER!!! I need help girls!

Girls, I might be going to Denver for a little weekend Vay-Kay. This guy is new, I guess I will call him Denver?

I haven't written about him yet even though we have been talking for a little while. His emails are funny, sarcastic, witty, pretty much everything that I am. He has a little foul mouth on him sometimes, but so do I. I was supposed to call him last night before I went to bed, but I ended up taking that absolutely AMAZING and divine cough syrup and slept on the couch instead of my bed. EWWWSPPPIES!!

Anyway he just mentioned something about a weekend up in Denver. Girls I need your help on Travel tips!! I'm leaving the 15th of Jan. and only staying till the 17th but I think that is enough time. I know I would probably need my own room and hotel. Even though I'm sure he has more than one house in CO. He is getting his secretary to look up flights. I hope hope hope it's first class.  I just now realized, I don't have any cold weather stuff to wear!! SHIT! I mean I have a ski jacket but I don't know how well it's going to keep me warm. I guess I have a pea coat. SHOPPING IS IN ORDER DADDY!

SO I have really never been around snow and I'm super excited. I went snowboarding when I was in high school but I wasn't in it for long. I ended up breaking my wrist so I was inside for the last 3 days. I LOVE SNOW! But that means no heels right?!? SO SHIT what am I going to wear?

SMY called me today pretty early, well earlier than his usual time. I didn't answer. Then I got a call from a blocked number. I never answer those, if they leave a voice mail, I might call them back. I called SMY back and he sounded pretty stressed.
"*wifey* went though my phone last night, she is probably going to call you."
"I think she already did, I didn't answer."
"OK, well I'll talk to you later."
"k bye."

I think I have broken down SMY a little more. I know why he wants me around. I remind him of a younger version of his wife. When she was skinny, athletic, beautiful, not a bitch, etc. I can deal with that. I know he won't get too attached just because he LOVE LOVES variety. I think I will keep him around for nights out to clubs and partying. He isn't really the ultimate sugar daddy. He is like the fun, little gift, drug, drinks, fill up my gas tank daddy. Nice to have around when I want to go crazy downtown or try a new sushi place, but sucks with the allowance and keeping his wife out of his phone. DRAMA! No, thanks. I'll pass!  I might need to teach him how to lie a little better.

So this was the night that I was most looking forward to. SMY and I had talked about it all week. The night that we could finally go out on the town and we would have fun with his friends and my friends, well the ones that were in town, anyway. I decided to take a shower and then head over to my friend's house to get ready and do my hair. I had checked in with SMY to see what we were doing. He got a suite for the night, so no drinking and driving, SMART PLAN. The ultimate plan was to meet at the hotel, pre-party, and go to the club. Once again, I was an hour late. I'm really never late and the past two times that I have made plans to meet up with him at a specific time, I'm late. Probably doesn't look great on my part but I'm going to make it a point to be on-time the next time.

We valeted and I charged it to his room without asking him first, tehehehe. He met us down in the lobby, walked us up and carried my over night bag.  I could tell he had been drinking already while waiting for us girls. We all meet each other, start drinking, and decide to head to the bar. In the car ride over to the hotel, my friend was hoping that we would be taking a taxi to the club and save our precious little feet for dancing. SMY rings a taxi, MUSIC TO THE GIRLS' EARS and mine, of course. The heels that I was wearing last night wouldn't have been fun to make the trek it.

We get our booth for bottle service and start dancing and having a good time. OH so his friends that went out with us, know his wife... I MEAN LIKE ONE OF THEM IS BLOOD RELATED! Drinks start flowing, inhibitions go away. The next thing you know we are bringing a girl and another couple to the hotel to have a little after party. I got the hot waitresses numbers to come party. We have fun with our couple of drinks, a few laughs, blah blah blah.

Everything starts winding down, I change into sweats. SMY could not resist me. He could not keep his hands off of me the entire night. Needless to say I did not get any sleep whatsoever and neither did he. We talked about things, fucked, talked some more, fucked, some more fucking. hmm yepp  .
All in all, it was an amazing wild night adventure.  I don't know when his wife will be back in town, but hopefully never! I feel so sorry for him. He is treated like absolute shit.

I wish I could tell you all the details but then this would turn into a novel.

Maybe I should update....

(are you kidding me, these are redick!)

Well nothing sugar has been going on lately. I bought some new boy shorts and some really cute sweats with the gift card SMY got me. We haven't been talking as much since I have been into town. He did give me a wake up call yesterday(after I had sent a text saying I missed them), but I was completely out of it at 8:30am because I had just woken up at 6:30am to give myself another dose of my AMAZING codeine cough syrup. I WAS OUT OF IT. Probably shouldn't have even of answered my phone. Meh whatev., I was cute and cuddled up in my bed whispering sweet nothings wishing he was there with me.

I have lost touch with most of the potSDs but I'm sure they will be crawling back once the world goes back to normalcy from these crazy holidays.

I have already gotten my santa gift... A NEW SUIT CASE! It's real cute. Now I can travel and look cute instead of having luggage that I have had since I was like 9. YAY! It even has a cute place for my laptop. I also got a cute rhinestone crown coffee mug. It's going to be perfect for my 8am studios that will last till 3pm... FML.  I will update more when it comes tonight!!

Speak of the freaking devil... SMY called. What a cutie. Bad news wifey doesn't leave till SAT. FUCK THAT HOE BAG. She pushed her flight back, she knows something is up and he said "My cell is going to be under hard core surveillance the next couple of days because *wife* knows that I'm planning some xmas gifts for myself." hmmm does she think strippers? WHO KNOWS. Maybe I'm his little xmas gift. Maybe I should get him something? That would be a hard gift to shop for. Maybe a bottle of wine or some liquor. He loves vodka and patron. Think I might have found the perfect gift. Hello SPECS! He asked after he dropped off wifey and son at the airport if he could have morning sex with me at my house. I told him not at my house but possibly at his. Wifey might have cameras up or something... how funny would that be. I would give her a good show.

He mentioned something about hating xmas and all the gifts, he added that he loved shopping for mine. I asked why. "Because I didn't have to wrap it." Well SMY you do know you can have people wrap your gifts for you right? HAHAHA What a funny man. Personally, I LOVE wrapping. I always find the most perfect unexpected gifts for people. Wrapping it in the perfect gift wrap is always the most fun for me. I guess it's a talent I have.

I always think his wife loves catching him. His wife isn't dumb and is very intuitive. I hate intuitive people that work against me. Having them on your side is better, sometimes.

I'm so ready to booze it up. HUGE xmas dinner, Booze, Presents, Cards.... If only it would stop being so freaking windy...

MERRY CHRISTMAS SUGARS!!

Date with SMY

He had decided on 3 places to go. A really good steak place and two sushi places (SMY and I LOVE sushi). So I made him decide on where he wanted to take me. Meanwhile I was joking around that he was going to cancel on me. He thought I was going to cancel on him because when I met him downtown (while I was with Ivanka) I might have been a little more than tipsy.  He kept saying "You might have had your beer goggles on." We all know how that goes.

Well, I was late because I had to look at this house with my mom (pictures will come a little later on FB). ALMOST A FREAKING HOUR. I hate builders who want to talk forever. It's a beautiful house, almost breath taking. I had texted him telling him that I was going to be late and that I would leave but I didn't have my car. He was my real-life GPS for like 15 minutes because I didn't know where I was going. We were outside of the restaurant and he said he had a present for me that he had gotten. I was very surprised and asked him what it was... He didn't tell me,  he handed me a victoria's secret gift bag....
"WHAT IS IT, A THONG?"
"No, that would have been too presumptuous."
A gift card. I didn't open it, yet.

We had lunch and it was VERY good. I'm retarded with chopsticks and he made the waiter make me the "child's version". Oh he was so sweet. We were about to finish eating and then came the "what are we doing next" conversation. He wanted to take me to the driving range. Well, I'm the only one in my family that doesn't golf and the fact that I had stiletto boots on didn't help matters. I asked him if he wanted to help me organize his office (he had mentioned that in a conversation on the phone to make a little cash) He replied, "If you were to come back to the office, I wouldn't be able to focus." I said, "there is nothing wrong with that, I'll make sure you focus." Regardless I got my way and went back to his office for a "massage". We all know what that means...

I followed him to his office and we watched tv for a bit. He gave me possibly the worst massage ever. It was thoughtful. One thing lead to another and we were doing the dirty... I know I know horrible of me. My hormones got the best of me. FUCK HORMONES!! He enjoyed it better than I did and I'm glad to please. So I guess I have him hooked in more than one way, mauhahahahahha.

After I left, I opened the present. Well the gift card didn't say anything the amount so I texted him what the amount was.... "150" WHAT?!?!?! FUCK YES! I only get my comfy boy shorts from vicki's so that's a good hefty amount. I called him and thanked him, he asked what I was going to do tonight and this weekend. I told him and I asked him what he was doing. He made sure that I would be the first one to know if he was going to go out without the wife. YES!!

Once again, I'm waiting for it to be Monday so I can talk and see him. I'm starting to hate the weekends. Next weekend he wants to go downtown and celebrate something of his friend's blah blah I wasn't really paying attention, he wants me to bring girlfriends. Ivanka, you down?

Update later babies! Luv ya Mean it!

I thought weekends were something to look forward to...

I'm finding myself loving the weekdays and dreading the weekends because of SMY. I only talk to him during the week because his weekends are with his son. I haven't talked to him since Thursday and it was only a little chat because he was in and out of meetings and taking care of stuff at the office. He has been quite busy lately and that means more shopping and dinners for me. Yay!! I love when that happens.
 I can't wait to see him this coming Thursday!! I hope lunch will be amazing and anything we do after that.

I have talked more to Mr. Hardwood. He wants to do something this next weekend. Let's see if he tries to slither his way out of this one... he probably will and have some lame ass excuse. Oh well, I will have back up plans like I always do.

My sugar stream is slowly coming to a stop. I'm sure with the holidays coming up, there isn't going to be much activity.

I'm so ready to get finals over with. My father won't be too happy with my grades this semester but I tried my hardest with all things considered.

I seriously need a massage and a sugar scrub!!

Update on SMY, sugar life, and half of my real life...

Sorry I haven't updated in about a week. Just haven't had very interesting news to tell you guys...

SMY:
He was going to surprise me with a visit up here. I figured he was just talking out of his ass like most guys do... Well I was right. He isn't coming. Which is actually better because I have a very busy week ahead of me. I FUCKING HATE DEAD WEEK OF FINALS! We are STILL going to class during dead week. FML. Anyway he isn't coming and it's better that way.

We had talked this morning about when I was coming back into town for the holidays. I asked him when I should and he said he wanted to take me to lunch on the Friday I get back. He mentioned something about this steak house that is really good. He said lunch, martinis, shopping, and maybe a hotel room.... "Umm I don't know about the hotel room" (our talks have been VERY flirtatious so I can see why he said that)  "I just don't want to promise you something and not follow through with it." SMOOTH MOVE ON MY PART! HA! He appreciated my comment.

Anyway ladies (maybe gentlemen) I don't know if I want to go shopping because my last experience shopping with Mr. BrickBreaker was a complete disaster! I felt like he was judging me on what type of shoes I would get. If they were too flashy, blah blah blah. He should have just shut  his mouth and observed what I liked. Whatever... end rant. Anyway I don't know if I want to go shopping, so what should I do?  He had mentioned something about the driving range... P.S. my whole family knows how to play golf but I DON'T! I told him I just never got around to getting lessons because I was always busy with horse shows and stuff. (BTW I ride horses... I know so cliche- being from Texas and riding horses... but I do the Jumping thing, so not completely true) So maybe it will be a good way for him to teach me and get closer that way.

He had said something about going to a shooting range with his son one time. So I mentioned it to him... Why not go there? Take some aggression out blah blah blah... but it almost seems too trashy in a way.  And I would want to take my aggression out in the bedroom if you know what I mean.  Put Put sounds too regular date-ie-ish (I know not a word, but sounded so perfect) SHITTTTTTT I don't know!!!  Maybe a spa date? couple's massage? Maybe not for the first "official" date...

GIRLS I NEED YOUR OPINION!!

No reply from Mr.Brickbreaker with the last email I sent him... (look below)

New pots. 


Mr. Downtown- Have been talking to him for about a week or 2... Wants to meet up, very short emails. No communication skills over email what so ever. He said he is different in person. FUCK I HOPE SO! Every time I ask him what he does, he somehow avoids the question... Not so sure about him but we will know soon enough.

Mr. Corvette- Yes he has one, I think he is in love with it. Small business owner. Has seen 2 other girls from my college. ASKED IF HE COULD STAY WITH ME WHILE HE WAS IN TOWN... UM NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I told him I had three roommates and one of them was a guy... haha! Lies all Lies! He wants to meet for lunch sometime... we will see where that goes... probably not very far.

Mr. Sushi- Obsessed with sushi! YES!! Wants to meet when he gets back from Hawaii and Vegas... UMMMM yes please! He asked me to join him in Vegas... I told him I wasn't comfortable with that. He understood. He keeps hinting on me going on trips with him... CHYEAH!

Mr. Business- Currently in Germany for business. (check yes) We will see where that goes... Not too much on him yet but I'll let you know when I get some more!

Right now I think SMY is my best bet for a SD over the holidays... He isn't going to NY with his kid anymore (his wife is taking him) YAY! more time with him!!! I think he will help me get motivated to go work out more. HE IS OBSESSED! Maybe yoga membership?  Yes please daddy! I NEED CASH, BILLS AND X MAS PRESENTS NEED TO BE PURCHASED!

Back to studying my life away and writing papers. Jesus I haven't even eaten yet!

Baby, It's Cold Outside

Officially downloaded the first song of Christmas!!

Baby, it's cold outside- Leon Redbone and Zooey Deschanel.

I'm so ready for finals to be over. Only two more weeks of class and the week of finals. I'm really looking forward to going to Vegas with the family. I know I know, you thought it was a SD taking me to Vegas... NOPE, No such luck yet. It should be fun with the family, mine is the crazy party animal type, yes it's going to be quite an adventure. I'm still debating on when when the family should go to Vegas. Before christmas or after... My christmas isn't going to be that exciting because we have to start packing and moving. BLAH I might just stay at my apartment for that little week...

In sugar news:

The only thing that is really going on right now is the guy that me and Ivanka (Adventures In Sugar Land) had met at the bar when we went out gallivanting around and looking for SD's.

I have been waiting on a nickname to come to me, but it hasn't yet. So let's just make one up, shall we?

His name: Mr. SMYank. (why not SMY for short?).

He has short hair, 6'2" ( I'm 5'6 so with 3"- 4" heels he was still taller than me... HARD TO FIND!), the build of a pro football player. YUMMM football players! OH not to mention blue eyes.  He was funny and bought Ivanka and I drinks and shots... btw Ivanka can drink, don't let this cute innocent looking girl fool you.

Back to SMY, he owns a construction company. I verified. He also was willing to give me the website and was very open about EVERYTHING. He has been a SD before. (check!) The only thing that is keeping us from seeing each other is school, my trip to vegas (maybe), and his trip to NY with his kid. So we might even see each other until next year. Sad day. He was joking about taking a "business trip" to where I go to school. That would be fun! Hopefully he is a little bit serious. Our conversations and texts are hilarious, sarcastic, witty, amazing. He called me this morning at 9 (before he knew that I had been up since 7am) and said "What's the story morning glory?" haha SO CUTE!  I'm very curious to see where this goes.

Updates as they come....

Ready to get completely annoyed with christmas songs yet?